In a new interview, Sam Smith admitted he is open to a sex change as he comes to terms with his identity. He added that he is still figuring out who he is.
Smith, who came out as gay at the age of 10-years-old, sat down for a candid interview with Jameela Jamil on her I Weight Instagram TV series. He said that his mind and body are often in a battle that makes him “think like a woman”. The singer currently refers to himself as “non-binary”, meaning someone that is “neither male nor female”.
The singer said, “I’ve always had a bit of a war in my body and my mind… I do think like a woman in my head at times. I’ve sometimes sat there and questioned, do I want a sex change? It’s something I still think about, but I don’t think it is.”
He added, “When I saw the word non-binary and gender queer and read into it and heard these people speaking I thought ‘f*** that is me’. You do not identify in a gender. You are just you. You are a mixture of all things. You are your own special creation. That is how I take it. I am not male or female. I think I float somewhere in between – it’s all on a spectrum.”
He also said, “I think the same about sexuality. I’ve been with too many straight men to know that not everyone who is straight is fully straight. You fall in love with people, not genitals. I’ve tried to change that into my thoughts on gender… when I move, when I have sex with men, it’s very feminine. I’m feminine in many ways – and I’ve always resented that.”
The singer had liposuction at the age of only 12-years-old because of excess estrogen in his chest that left him with breasts, for which he was bullied by his school peers. He talked about how he felt after some weight was surgically removed. He said, “It didn’t change anything because I put the weight on within two weeks because I hadn’t really figured out my relationship with food.”
Smith dropped four stone in 2015 during a worldwide tour but told Jamil that he has put the weight back on over Christmas and not touring. He said, “I do want to help other people, but you can only do that by helping yourself first. I want to speak out about body issues and weight in men. It’s the basis of all my sadness. Literally, everything I’ve ever been sad about is my weight and I struggle with it every day.”
Smith is currently preparing for a number of appearances in South Africa in April.